Finally...I ve just got myself this...(enjoy reading!)


about me:
My life is no fairy tale. But it is a life-long saga of triumph and tragedy. I do have my own shortcomings like all people do have.I know that no matter how, I try to be good (kind&nice), somewhere along the way some things just don't work out well & that even if itll work out,there will always be those people wholl think of me otherwise & see me in a wrong perspective.I have always believed though that each person deserved to be treated in a good way.Just as I also believe that there are goodness buried in all of us despite the obvious differences (of philosophies and characters).

I do have my own regrets. I could be the type of person who would cry over spilled milk especially if that milk means so much to me.

I could be stubborn & wouldnt settle. Big difference between what gets into my nerves & what I CAN tolerate. And I just have HUGE tolerance,especially to people I love & care so much.

I could be the sweetest & kindest person there ever will be but I also have my flaws and I could be the ugliest to some people who refused to know me.

My actions? Could be clumsy (actions often betray me).
Words? Not very good with words I guess (fail me often).

Can also be naughty,funny & crazy... ;)

I tend to be easily hurt, but I NEVER would want to hold grudges against anyone.
Amidst the pain,PERHAPS I'd still choose to understand and forgive.


I believe that in life people commit mistakes&it's either they get up and learn from it or be drown by it.
I may cry over my mistakes.
But there is always a hope in me that someday I may be able to look back & smile over the things that happened in my life.
Made me a better person.
I believe all events are necessary to reach the places I am destined to go.

My epitaph?I want it to read this way:
The man who wished for nothing more than to become what all cocoons have wished for at the very beginning -- to become a full-winged butterfly... :)

Who I wanna meet:
People who WOULDN'T INTENTIONALLY hurt other people...

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I admire people who can make me laugh even without trying. I love people who can make fun of themselves and still manage to have people respect them... =)

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Im really not as much wise-pussy and aloof-pussy as I may sometimes seem.I only appear that way when a situation is very threatening to me.I suppose I always did. Like a lot of people,its one of my defenses against being hurt.

Ive always wanted to be where I feel loved,cared,and needed. But when I feel powerless and rejected,I feel terrible.

In time, as I feel more confident and I suppose less helpless,I can do something about the confusion and despair I feel.I will be more willing to let people see me as vulnerable, and as warm and caring.Perhaps wanting to share a sense of closeness.Or perhaps a sense of happiness.

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I write how I feel.I only wish to paint a picture of my inside with the words of poetry.

Ahl


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